Ryoness

Starchild

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I close my eyes and watch
the universe move within me
nebulas and supernovas
billowing in the darkness

I am a storm raging
in the silent Nothing;
deeper than a bottomless sea
at the end of it ALL

Tattered canvas

I love my scars

they are stories written on my skin

echos of a past

only my flesh remembers

–what was once shattered carnage

has become the final brushstroke

that has made me

a masterpiece

Inward momentum

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What is the opposite of being stretched thin?
Not the feeling of being pulled in every which-way direction
or of hands holding you back from the inside,
But the feeling of being surrounded by a room full of people
whose backs are turned away from you.
What is that feeling called, when the walls are not
rolling you out onto a fragile sheet of glass,
but rebounding against you, their magnetic pulls
pulsating in the air while an equal-but-opposite echo
pins you to the empty space between them.
Is there a word for that?

Wanderers

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Some people are stars

others are constellations

but we are all of us searching

for a way through the darkness

Synergy

pexels-photo-52609-largeTwo hearts too afraid to open up,
have been seduced by comfort
and the idea that passion grows from time
when it is a fundamental truth that
stillness only makes us cold.

Of atoms and energy, we must make fire
as we fall apart into each other,
and as sweat and tears melt us into one.
Why else would water pour out of us so freely,
if not to quench our lover’s thirst?

 

Going home

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These heartstrings between us are fraying in the breeze
pulled tight against the distance when I left you here to leave
And now I’m too far gone to turn around here in the light
I’m going home,
going home

I guess It’s not for nothing that I hear you in the dark
your voice is on the wind, whispers calling to my heart,
though once I danced to songs of raging rivers in your eyes,
now I’m going home,
going home

You can try to bridge the distance but we cannot get off,
walk over troubled water but the river does not stop
and the crashing of the waves sounds like better company
so I’m going home,
going home

Love makes fools of men
until it comes around again

Once you were the anchor I held on tightly through the storm
but now the rain’s stopped falling and the seas are calm
The depths are far away and the sky burns endlessly
I’m going home
going home

Don’t cry for me I’m going home

In want of.

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I want to love someone.
I want to want to spend all of my time with them,
obsessed with the sway of their walk, and the
stillness of their pauses. I want to be
consumed by the shadows on their skin
so much so, that even when they’re gone
their image burns through the lens of my
inner eye–a cavern so deep, if I had all of eternity
I would never be able to touch the depths of such a soul.

Silence victorious

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It was the moment I gave up,
When so many years of caring too much
collided with the end of a road,
One they had told me was full
of endless possibilities if I gave
enough of my heart to it

I held my chest open,
sometimes with chains and crowbars,
The force of collapse at times
seeming too much to bear,
and on days when it weakened under
the pressure of it all, I used my own hands
to pump life back into itself.

But I bled more than it could bleed.
and the road is gone now
it is barely a dirt path here
at the end of it all.

Rising sea

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As an homage to the tide, I tear myself apart,

let my skin split into rivulets the same way she

fractures the moon over her body.

I have not the tears to pour onto the sand

the ways she courses relentlessly over the shore,

but I have enough to drown in while

my cries build into her own.

Mens rea

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Failure remains sin:
It is intent that incriminates,
which shackles us in irons.

Was it not the Pharaohs who taught us?
Those specters who upon death
will weigh our hearts to a feather?

Not our minds, no,
nor our skins which obey.

Reluctance will not lead to salvation
when our most secret desires
build walls of consumption.

It is this that beats me through the chest
prac-tice       is not      per-fec-tion

But still, I am restrained.

Bow

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The waves, the waves, falling onto the sand
their curtains lapping against my skin

The clouds roll in from the horizon, and with them
a thunderous applause

Pink

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I dream of budding roses outside my window
and the sunsets that paint their petals pink
Here I sleep, and a quiet voice sings to me
a love song my heart cannot beat to alone

Lust in orbit, we drift to a dance, not our own,
and when the morning flush wakes me from myself,
all at once the sky becomes blue again.

Lilith

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Once an angel
then a monster
now a queen

Once beloved in
the valley of creation
then cast back–unmade
into the void.

Famine, fallow,
ashes to dust,
Paradise fell.

From its ruin
she found eternity.

Comforts of you

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When the cold river bed runs still
that is when I will return to the channel,
still waters open against the slope.
I will dive down into the crystal tide
and comfort the lonely sighs of swells and secrets.

Cyprus, that is their name.
Those faithful guardians who build their fortress into the bank,
roots twisting beside fragile limbs of silt and sand.

They bow a courtesy to the wandering stream
and we close our eyes and lower our voices,
martyrs alive to witness the coming storm.

On my sleeve

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My first taste of love was in knowing
that it would always be buried far too deep
Sought, but sewn tightly
to the hem of my sleeve
crowded by the heart I so often wear