Dear Sunlight,
I haven’t seen you in a while,
Or felt you on my skin.
I wonder, maybe, if you’re still there
Or if you’ve grown tired of making the long trip
To sit on my cold, unforgiving skin.
Sometimes I see you
Swimming with the waves
Glittering on each crest in a slow, passionate waltz
And I miss you.
I miss your warmth,
Your caress,
Your love.
You are mother of the world
And lately I’ve felt like an orphan.
Dear Mare,
I saw you together with Sunlight
The way you reach up to kiss her freckled glints of light
The way you catch her as she falls
In cascading ripples of heaven.
Mare, I have no one to catch me.
I miss you the way a child misses
the soft comfort of the womb.
I miss your swaddling embrace
That made me feel like I was safe
You were the bed I lay in for eternity
And now I only have restless nights
lying on the cold floor.
I slept with you
and felt myself become a current in your sea;
Suspended in your vastness,
I was tragically infinite and wonderfully limited.
You are the home of my spirit,
But lately I’ve felt homeless
Dear Moonlight,
Do you lay your body across the night
The way you used to lay across me?
You used to confide in me
gossip between the stars,
Orion and Scorpio and the secrets they composed.
What songs we shared between midnight memories,
And you waltzed across the night
Full, then new, then gibbous
Just to make me laugh,
smiling a crescent smile.
I knew such sweet love then.
And I see you now and I feel cold—quiet.
Each star is a tear you’ve cried
I wish I could wipe them away.
Then the night sky would be only ours
A ballroom where we could dance together
And laugh again
And where I could feel you against me like I used to—
My only love
Where have you gone?
You are the song of my heart,
But lately I’ve felt voiceless.
Dear Orion,
Moonlight told me your secrets
But you never hid them from me anyway.
When things were what they had been
We reached across light years
to grasp towards each other’s light
leaving fingerprints on each other’s cheeks.
We reached as far as we could
And felt freedom in the distance we crossed,
Wild and reckless.
Now my muscles ache
And I reach as far as I can
But I don’t feel you reach back
And when you do, I think you’d rather reach towards someone else.
You were my only friend
No distance too far that we wouldn’t traverse.
I fear I’m on my own,
Without your three stars to guide me,
as your bow looks towards a new path
that points everywhere I’m not…
All the places I cannot go.
With you wild tundra was kindred land,
But lately I’ve felt I’m just a vagabond.